The word that explains it all :Miskh:

I think about it, just about every time someone asks me,
"Why you stop blogging?"
+_+ dude I really have no answer.
The last attempt apparently came to naught.

I'm here anyways, telling a story from a little city called Miri City.
With no great internet connection, I gots no photos.
Haven't been taking them anyway.
Miskh...
Whats miskh?
Oh, you put you teeth together, and blow while putting the back of your tongue
agaisnt your teeth. Try it now.
Miskh, yes, you should get a semi gurgly sound.
Miskh is my new situation, probably my new god if it comes to that.

I'm home, I'm sleepy and I'm hungry...
Just sent Ke An home this morning, sigh... great to have her around,
starting to miss her so much already.
And no I'm not saying it just to make you happy,
I really do.
Didn't get much sleep in the day though, couldn't anyways.
It gets me sometimes, that I can't sleep, staring at that blank white ceiling.
Trying my best not to succumb to emoness.
But sometimes, its just gets the better of you.
I came back, canceled movie with my Cuz, coming home to eat and sleep.
My sis was cooking for me dad, yeah, lots of food there.
But when I ask, "Is there any food for me"
I get, "Hah?!?"
Ok! I get the idea...
"I thought you go out eat leh, didn't cook for you ohh"
*Big plate there...* ...
I'm hungry dammit... its okay, put it aside learn from those monks.
Live long life. Triple L.
Oh there's black bean soup... I can have that later.
Went upstairs went to sleep.
Woke up irritated came down.
Plate of food, gone.
3 da bao boxes, empty.
There's a box of white rice and chicken rice.
Ate the chicken rice.... water's got more taste, water from M'sia anyway.
Called my sis, "Did you buy the chicken rice?"
"No, who bought it?"
"Don't know I'm eating it it sucks its tasteless"
"Then why you ask me leh??..."
*Ignores the temperament*
"Its okay, there's still black bean soup I can have that"
Ok get this...
What she said after that probably made my blood boil and eyes bleed.
"Hah?? But that soup is for Indiana(younger brother) he say he wanted to go bistro to eat but I told him there's soup at home he can have then if you eat whats he gonna eat??? Just now I asked the maid to make a burger for you but you went to sleep so long, call you no answer ask her go knock on your door... haiyah"
Fucking... BurgeR?
And that bowl of black bean soup could feed my family... Christ...
So I ended up with a cold hard burger...
Just one man... I haven't eaten since breakfast.
And now I'm here, I'm hungry and I'm about to make my brother
make me something cause I really don't wanna get outta this room.

But enough of that O.o


Whats more interesting is what I'll be doing next year.
Best part : I haven't even told my dad.
I hate that. I hate that feeling.
I hate always having to do something simply to please someone else.
I love independence.
Now I'm stuck with making sure he's "happy" with my decision,
and figuring out how to do it.
Or rather, what to do if he's not satisfied with it.
Then what'll become of me? zzz...
Ghiz out, for now... really really sleepy. Harsh day.

A comeback

Dear lads, its been while..

Yeah I hear some of you calling me as if I were beyond the grave,
"Why you stop blogging Ghiz???"
All I could say was, "I just didn't feel like it?"
And that rings true cause there are times when you feel like telling the world
what your life feels like.
Other times, you just feel like shutting those voices out of your head.
Why is it your own concern anyway?

But I heeded those calls, man I was really out for quite a period of time.
And here I'm back again, Gghiz, with a spirit thats here to stay.
Oh, of course we need to celebrate, or at least have some sort of
magnificent comeback!
Ah yes, cbox... oh what the hell someone flamed me? Cy...
Who do I know by the name of Cy............
Thinking... still thinking...
Man, if only you put your full name in there when you flamed me.
Then I can really decide what to say or how to say it to ya.
I mean, brothers and sisters, if I gonna tell someone, to fuck off or how ugly he/she is,
I bloody gonna make sure that person gets me name right so he/she'll remember me for life.
That's the way the ball rolls people.
Yo so Cy, word of advise man/girl, whatever, next time you come posting,
please don't get over your head just because you've got a big colorful riot screen in front of you,
touch up bulk up be a man.

Hahahahaha, geez I love these Singaporeans, so full of love.
Nothing like coming back firing back a bit of hate I say...
Spent 3K dollars on me bro these last few days
remaking his outfits remaking his closet,
you all should've seen his shoes, torn tattered worn tearing smelling?...
3K dollars.... he better wear them clothes. Or 3K's going to charity.
Hahahaha, And the next few days or so, It'll be my turn for a makeover,
I gots with me around 2K, and Singapore may not be the best place,
but AX had pretty good stuff and we won roughly $430 from Topshop,
really looking forward to that! =O

Well, times a wasting, I wish I had written this much for my US personal essays.
Wrote of you JuelzeCrown, how you changed my life, thats my brother right there.
And of all the shit you made me do too, its in there.
Hahahah
Cheers man.